Hmm....

I'm going to jump right in....

Dr: "hello, how are you?"

me: "doing well."

Dr: "what brings you by today, just an annual check-up?"

me: "yep, that's it, just an annual check-up."

***doc is now going through her list of who, what, when, where, why and how and then she gets to this question.

Dr: "do you have any children?"

me: "no."

Dr: "how old are you?"

me: "32"

Dr: "do you plan on having any?" with her eyebrows raised.

me: "yes"

Dr: "when?" still has those eyebrows raised.

me: "I have to get married first."

Dr: "uhm. are there any prospects?" yep, eyebrows still raised.

me: "no."

Dr: sighing with a look that seems to say 'hmm, i don't know about this.'

me: not appreciating the look or the apprehension but completely understanding that she's a student of science, i said to her "do you believe in God?"

Dr: "yes" while she chuckles like 'of course.'

me: "well pray for me."

Dr: she says "okay" still chuckling. then she says "if you don't have any kids within the next 2 - 3 years, I would suggest that you go to the fertility clinic (i'm getting blue in the face at this point) and freeze your eggs."

me: nothing. absolutely nothing. i said nothing at all. i just looked at her. i didn't know what to say. i actually think i went numb. i was so numb that i don't really recall the "exam" and most of you know how much i absolutely do not like that appointment.

okay, i think i'm still numb. as much as i don't want to think about it, the reality is i can't wait forever to have children. i know there are some modern day saras out there but that just isn't what i want or desire. aaahhh...still numb.

isn't this a good time for the online bible study we're doing, "Believing God." Beth Moore often talks about how we should get caught in the act of believing. if you haven't signed up, i highly recommend it. we're only on week 1 so there's still time to join in.

the end

~bdr